Sunday, January 30, 2011


This weekend Anthony and I (and Jay!) went to our church's annual Marriage Retreat. Sounds horribly boring, right? You're WRONG! We are on the committee for this retreat and have loved going the past three years. Honest. Even Anthony likes it! :)  It might have something to do with the fact that we don't sit around and talk about feelings and hold hands and point fingers....

Not only is it a fantastic little weekend getaway, it's a FUN time to spend with friends from our church. It's hard sometimes in the hustle and bustle of Sunday mornings to chit chat with people from church. But then you have a weekend like this, and you truly get to know people. Plus, our speaker and his wife are amazing! I'm one of those people who know I will NEVER be an expert on marriage, so I know I can always learn more and get better. This was such a great recharge/reminder weekend of what marriage is all about.

One of my favorite quotes from the weekend (and it's not verbatim- sorry) was, "What if marriage was one of God's tools to get you to Heaven?" I pondered this quite a bit, and I truly believe it. I know that God created marriage for many reasons, but I honestly believe that this is one of the many parts of a good marriage. I am SO blessed to have married a man who is helping me to get to Heaven. He is constantly pushing me to be not only a better person, but a better Christian. He is our spiritual leader and takes that position very seriously. It's amazing too, because Anthony didn't grow up going to church. He has picked this up on his own, and it's amazing to see how God has worked so tremendously in his life. God has molded him to be a remarkable Christian, and I'm so thankful that He chose me to walk alongside (is that a word?)  Anthony in this life.

Ok, enough sappy marriage talk....  :)

The rooms at the retreat were awesome- well, they were old and the carpet was kinda sticky (seriously- gross), but the setup was great. There was a common area with four bedrooms (hotel sized- they were big enough for private bathroom and two queen beds) off of it. Our "cottage" had us, The Robertsons (including four month old Wyatt), The McIntoshs (including four month old Norah), and The Bayles (they were kid-less this weekend!). Because of this setup, we were able to put the kids down and have fun grown up time in the common areas! It was perfect!

Jay did a great job learning how to be a good husband (ha!), but not so great otherwise. He didn't sleep well at all because he would wake up in the middle of the night, and instead of putting himself back to sleep, Mr. Alert would look around trying to figure out where the heck he was! Needless to say, sleep was hard to come by. Also, he started some "separation from Mommy" thing this weekend! WHAT?!!? I thought that wasn't supposed to come for a while!!!!!! He would SCREAM every time Anthony tried to put him down. Argh...  I was not only exhausted from little sleep, but my body (my back mostly) was SO tired!

Other than these two things, he was in a GREAT mood and did his best to flirt with all the women there. He flashed that big ol' gummy grin and it was over! :)

It was a fun weekend spent with friends and making new ones. It was fun to recharge and remember what marriage is all about.

And here are a few pictures from the weekend (again, no family picture... sigh...).

Playing with Wyatt R.
Although it kind of looks like he's pinning him... 

Putting the moves on Norah... 

Looking for a four leaf clover

I just love these sweet hands and feet! 

Wednesday, January 26, 2011


I am pretty sure the cold is officially GONE! Maybe it was my whining post yesterday. Or maybe it had to do with the fact that I prayed HARD to the Good Lord for a DECENT (I didn't request perfect, just decent) night of sleep. I'm guessing God was probably as sick of my whining as everyone else...

Regardless, we had our first night of decent sleep in ten days!! WOOOHOOOOOO! Jay only woke once at 2:30, I popped his pacifier back in, he settled himself and didn't get up again until his usual 5 am feeding! PRAISE JESUS! I had forgotten how wonderful it is to get six (though they were interrupted) hours of sleep. Love it!

And, because he had such a good night last night, he woke up feeling like a CHAMP! Look at this happy baby! And I almost took a picture of his ridiculously happy mommy. Almost. :)

We also had a good time taking our bath this morning. I had to post this because I love how Tex is a part of everything ALWAYS. He's never more than a few feet away from his baby. And I love that.

We ran to HEB for some groceries this morning. This kid is LOVING the freedom of sitting up. I LOVE this picture because he looks so freakin' TINY. A-DOR-A-BLE.  :)

Alright, off to order a Packers Onesie for this kid for the SUPERBOWL!!!! GO PACK GO!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Boo Cold.

Ok, so most who know me know that I hate cold weather. I hate everything about it. I like to go skiing in the cold, but only for a few days. I'm just NOT a fan. If it's lower 60's that is just about cold enough for me!

I have also come to hate another part of cold- the sickness. I. Hate. Colds. I've never really LIKED them, but they never bothered me before. Until my baby had one. Now, I hate them.

Let me just give you an idea of our last week...

Jay woke up LAST Sunday morning at 2 am not able to breathe. Horrible congestion and coughing. Panicking at the fact that he might suffocate (ok, not really, but just a little worried), I put him in bed right next to me so at least I could prop him up or do something! That was the first night of sleeplessness for the both of us. Fast forward to today, Tuesday, NINE nights later, and we still can't sleep. Most of the congestion is gone, but something is still not right. Jay was an amazing sleeper. He would typically go about 9 1/2 hours, wake around 5ish to eat, and then back for another 2 1/2. Now, he hasn't had a stretch of sleep longer than 4 hours, and I haven't had one of longer than 2 hours (SERIOUSLY). 9 Nights of this. He wakes up screaming in the middle of the night (if he woke up before it would be cooing or talking, then he'd eat, and go back to sleep). I can't settle him, it just stinks.

I am tired.

Not only did he stink at night sleeping, he stunk at naps too. Since he couldn't breathe, the only way he could nap was for me to hold him in his glider. He would get some great 2 hour naps, but I got nothing done.

And he only wanted to be held. All day long. Everyday.

He also hardly ate, hardly had wet or dirty diapers- needless to say, he was just absolutely miserable. Poor sweet baby. Who is this little guy? He's certainly not my awesome little boy.

Since this went on for 9 days I took him to the pediatrician yesterday thinking it HAD to be an ear infection that was prolonging this. NOPE. Nothing. Unless he's getting a tooth, it turns out I just have a wimpy little boy. I know most men aren't the *strongest* when they're sick, and apparently it starts this young.

At least I know he comes by it honestly. Love you Anthony.  :)

Saturday, January 22, 2011

5 Months!

Oh my gosh- that sounds so old!! Those of you with toddlers are prob laughing at me, but it really does! How in the world is my precious guy already that old??

This has been the month of two major things- eating and sitting!

Jay is a crazy good eater! I like to think of this as a reward for the fact that he has refused a bottle since three months. He likes pretty much everything he's had so far. Orange veggies are his fave, but he likes it all pretty well. He usually nurses about 5-6 times/day, and will eat ~1 oz of formula and oatmeal (I'm just not producing enough to pump all the time) and about a half a container of food. He's a champ at snacks (those little dissolvable (sp?) ones) and food through his little mesh bag, and LOVES drinking from his sippy cup! I can usually get him to take ~1 oz of formula from a cup.

Jay is getting way better at sitting! We have known from the beginning that he would not be content to just lay around. He rolls and scoots all over and loves this new perspective of sitting up. Although I'm pretty certain he would prefer to stand all the time!

He's still a great napper and sleeper (except when he's sick), and didn't get his first real cold until 5 months old! Yeah for good immunities!

Jay just started babbling with consonants. We get a lot of bla-bla-blas, ma-ma-mas (wish he knew what he was saying!), and other fun sounds. I think that is one of the sweetest sounds in the world! He also laughs a ton- especially for Daddy who is apparently the funniest person alive!

Jay is a HUGE flirt! He's not so fond of men (he actually cries at most!), but will flash that big ol' smile to a pretty girl in an instant! Daddy is very proud... :)

He also just started laughing at Tex which is sooo cute! His best buds are definitely Tex and Ella and they are soooo good at letting him grab their hair and tails, give kisses, and snuggle. We really lucked out with the sweet animals!

I could go on and on but I will stop here! I just love my little man and am so thankful for him. I just fall deeper in love with this baby every day!!

This is the best pic we could get of him...
Not too bad for a boy with a bad cold!

Monday, January 17, 2011

We Don't Need No Stinkin' Schedule!

So I've mentioned it before (I'm not going to do the whole- link back to an old blog post- thing... Jay is asleep and that would take half of my time off), but Jay is just NOT a schedule type of guy.

I am. I could write a schedule of each and every day right down to the 5 minute mark. And if I went off schedule at all, I would probably start hyperventilating. Seriously- I love schedules and I love lists. Imagine my dismay when both my husband and son (it still feels weird to say I have a son!) aren't. Argh. Well, let me correct myself. They are both schedule people- just their OWN schedule type of people. Which means it changes every day.

Let's start with Anthony. Anthony has his schedule. And it's pretty rigid. I mean, he sets his alarm for 5:07 every morning. Not 5:00, not 5:10, but 5:07. He then has his morning routine down and gets everything completed the same way, every. single. day. Anthony's more of a routine person than a schedule person. I know this because it has taken me 7 years to get him to be semi-on time when it comes to me. He now gives me a heads up when things might interfere with my schedule (including being late). But this guy has the HARDEST time being on time. Seriously. Imagine how hard that is for a chronically EARLY and schedule person. It's like nails on a chalkboard to me getting somewhere late. I. HATE. IT.

Enter Jay. This precious boy has ZERO need for a schedule. It cracks me up when moms talk about how their babies nap and eat at the EXACT same times every day. Are you serious??! I know that I could force the issue and make Jay be on a schedule. But I'm just not that type. I didn't do the cry it out thing at night and Jay sleeps like a KING. Therefore, I didn't push the schedule thing, and he gets along GREAT.

This has been one of the HARDEST (yes, I realize I'm using a TON of all caps words- just let me be) adjustments for me. All I know about Jay's schedule is he usually goes down for a nap about 2 1/2 hours after he wakes up. And he eats every three hours. But if the nap goes into eating time, he will go 4 or 5 hours. See, no set schedule. And you know what? It's totally fine with me! For some reason, I have become this crazy laid back no-schedule person, and it's actually pretty fun! Ha!

Last week, though, Jay adopted somewhat of a schedule. The child went down to two naps a day! Ugh, not ready for that one. HOWEVER, he did take two really good naps (like at least an hour and a half each), and so that is definitely bearable. I read my friend Emily's blog (I don't want to link it because I didn't ask her permission), and she said her precious boy usually takes only one super short nap a day, so I am NOT complaining at all! Anyway, he got himself on what I would consider a pretty good schedule. Until this week. Of course. :) 

Poor boy is SICK SICK SICK. It's just a nasty cold, but man, it's bad. Picture crusty nose, dripping snot, watery, red, puffy eyes. Add the usual drool plus a horrible cough and sneezing and a low grade fever. I have just realized there is NOTHING more heartbreaking in life than seeing your baby sick. I actually teared up yesterday. :(   I would do anything to take this sickness away and have it myself. Poor baby. Anyway, needless to say this has thrown his whole "schedule" off.

Anyway, I know this post makes almost no sense. It jumps around, it uses way too many capital letters, and is just basically pointless. But I wanted to write it in case I ever get around to printing these into a book one day.

And I also wanted to let any of you know out there if you have a baby that is not a "schedule" baby (apparently some just are and some just aren't), then you aren't alone. And it's not all bad. I'm so thankful I have the freedom to stay home and not have to make Jay be on a schedule. I don't know how you couldn't be on a schedule as a working mom. Luckily, we just float through our days on a happy, schedule-less cloud. And this schedule girl is good with that.

Here's a pic so this post isn't completely worthless to all of you...   :)

I could stare at this face all day. 

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Best Thing Since Sliced Bread?

I love bread. I love fresh bread. So imagine my excitement today when I bought two loaves of fresh, HOT multigrain bread from Costco. It smelled so delicious and was calling my name the entire car ride home.

I got home and put Jay down for his nap. I got everything set up for my perfect lunch. My soap was ready, the chicken salad was out, lemonade poured... All I needed was a couple of slices of freshly sliced bread. I went to slice the loaf with the same knife I use EVERY single morning on my multigrain bagel.

I sliced the bread- and my finger. It was really deep. I immediately grabbed my finger with my other hand and just squeezed the two chunks together as tight as possible. I watched the blood drip, and I got lightheaded. I sat down. I drank some water. Here is where I couldn't decide what to do next. Was it really THAT bad? I mean, I saw that it was deep, but maybe if I squeezed tight enough it would just grow back together (I knew this was not likely, but it was worth a shot). I called my sister, Jennifer. I knew she was on her way past my house to Gymboree with Jill, so I asked if she could swing by and drop off some Bandaid Glue or some butterfly bandaids. Those would surely hold it together.

Jenn came by and looked at it and told me I needed to go to the Urgent Care Clinic. She sat at my house with Jay. By this point I rolled a piece of paper towel around it and just held it as tightly as possible.

Here is a picture of the before while I was waiting for the doctor. PS- my awesome "doctor" skills of wrapping it and holding it tight worked- the bleeding stopped enough for me to take a picture!

The doctor came in and long story short- told me I needed stitches and a Tetanus shot. Blech. After he numbed my finger (which made it REALLY fat!), he stitched me up. Seven stitches and several shots (the Tetanus and numbing ones) later, I was ready to head home. Here it is after.... 

It wasn't bad until the numbing meds started to wear off. Oh, that and when Jay grabbed it (many many times). Good times. Happy Tuesday. :)

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Bible Class!

So we had a big milestone in the Squillante household today! Jay went to his OWN Bible Class for the first time EVER today!

He normally comes with Anthony and me to our class. This usually ends up in me taking him outside to roll around on the floor and play. If you haven't figured out yet, Jay is a boy that ALWAYS moves. We've NEVER had the sleepy, precious infant that most have. We have always had the little kid that wants to be awake and see everything! Needless to say, Mommy was sad to be missing out on learning in her own class, and Jay was getting crazy bored trying to sit still and be quiet.

So today we went to class! I took him and actually stayed for the class- yes, I was THAT mom. But I had never seen it and the teachers were SOOOO sweet to let me stay and watch. It's a class for newborns-1 year olds. Today there were 4 kids in the class. Jay's buddy Daniel (8 months), Owen (1 year tomorrow), and Iseoluwa (three weeks older than Jay!). Jay sat at the table with the boys and Iseoluwa sat in one of those little rocker chairs. She was PRECIOUS and held her own being the only girl!

The class is so sweet- they sing lots of songs, and play with lots of toys while they learn about God. Daniel's favorite thing was to eat the Bible, Owen cried a little (he just wanted his Cheerios), Iseoluwa rocked and sucked her top lip (just like Jay!), and Jay just watched EVERYTHING. He LOOOOVED class! He honestly didn't look at me ONE time the entire class!

I did take a few pictures though. I am only posting two, but yes, like I said, I was THAT mom! :)

Sitting at the table like a big boy! 

A view from behind!
Iseoluwa is to the far right (you can't see her!)

Bible class today was definitely a success! I hope next week we have a good enough morning so we will be happy and ready to learn more about God! :)

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Foot Warmer

Each night before I go to bed, I check on Jay one last time. I do this for peace of mind before I go to bed for the night. One last check just to make sure he's breathing, nothing is near his airway, etc... Yes, I am paranoid. But I sleep so well after that, so judge away! :)

Anyway, the other night I went in there and saw THIS!!!!

Yes, that is Ella asleep on Jay's legs!!!! How stinking cute is that?!?! It was really cold that night and I know she was just keeping him warm. She is seriously SUCH a snuggly lovey little kitty, and he is a snuggly little boy! It's just a match made in heaven!

And PS- don't judge on his sleeping arrangements. I know that a LOT of people will tell me all of the things wrong with this picture (starting with the cat asleep on the baby, followed by tummy sleeping, followed by the blankets on him, followed by the bumpers). HOWEVER, he usually sleeps for about 12 hours each night, so it WORKS for us!! Thanks though!  :)

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Boot Scootin' Boogie!

Not really, but here is a cute video of Jay scooting! He's really sick of being immobile- I have no doubt once he's on the go he will be GONE! I'm afraid I'm in for a lot of chasing with him! At least that will help me burn some calories, right?!

I won't be offended if you don't watch the video. I RARELY watch videos on people's blog/facebook.

Oh, and I have started taking Jay to our gym and leaving him in the nursery. The longest I have left him was 50 minutes. The first five times I left him he pretty much cried (the last time he cried the WHOLE time). The lady told me when I picked him up (in her broken English), "This baby too strong. He not like sit in swing. He want to move or he cry. Can we put in big kid area and let play?" Shocker. My kid doesn't want to sit in the swing and stare off at nothing?? I would have never guessed. So today they put him with the "big kids" and let him roll around on the floor and play in the exersaucer. Guess what?? NO TEARS! This boy just gets bored sitting around!

Alright, off to down my lunch while he is napping! :)

Monday, January 3, 2011

Regular vs. Sweet

At least I know Jay is a healthy eater....

Here he is trying plain old regular potatoes

And here he is trying sweet potatoes... Seriously could not shovel them in fast enough!!!!

He LOVES to eat solids!!! He is OVER the rice cereal- and he LOVES banana and avocado from the little mesh bag...
Mom... You aren't getting it to me fast enough! 

So I will do it myself! 

This is so fun! A whole new little world to discover for us! :)