Monday, August 30, 2010

Surviving the First Week!

Wow... I can't believe it's already been over a week since our precious Jay was born! Time flew by these past 9 days!

Being in the hospital was actually a great experience. We had fantastic nurses (except for one- she was just blah) the entire time. I felt like they all did a GREAT job of keeping up with all of us and giving us space at the same time. We had some wonderful visitors and it went by so quickly!

He's a sucker!!

It's a tough life...

Out after his surgery!

Getting ready to come home!

Jay had his circumcision Monday morning (poor baby!) and then they sent us home! Crazy how quickly it went. I was a little anxious to come home- we have to do all of this on our own now?! Coming home was so fun! Tex is in love with his little brother and gave him a bath of kisses to tell him.

About to load up the car!

Meeting his brother, Tex!

Family of Five!  :)

Once we got home, it was time to get adjusted. Jay decided he didn't really want to eat much that day because of his surgery. And because of that, it was over 24 hours until he had a poopy or even pee-filled diaper. I knew that was not a good sign, so I called the pediatrician the next day (I figured they would tell me to supplement with some formula). They instead were concerned and told us to come in. So our first outing was to the pediatrician's office- boo. As you can imagine as soon as we got there and undid his diaper for the nurse, he decided to poop and pee! I'm sure they thought we were crazy first time parents, but I SWEAR, it had been almost 30 hours since he had done either one!!! So, after everything else looked good, we headed home. Oh, and did I mention that I cried almost the entire morning thinking I was starving my baby?? Love the hormones! :)

The rest of the week was a blur. Anthony's parents were in town until Wednesday and then my mom took over on the help. This has been such a blessing to let me get a nap! Anthony worked from home some and did LOTS of stuff around the house! It was so nice having everyone around!

One of the things we learned about our sweet boy is that he is NOT a fan of sleeping without being held. This is fine when you have family and friends over all day, but it makes it awfully hard at night! So Anthony and I would take shifts after me feeding him and we would sleep in the glider/recliner with him. This glider is AMAZING! At first I was nervous because it is SO HUGE, but when you have to use it as a bed, I'm SOOOO happy with our decision! It reclines completely flat, so you actually CAN get some sleep!

The great thing about Jay is that he is an overall EXCELLENT baby. He eats like a champ! I mean, from day one this kid latched on and sucked and did great. Once my milk came in, he became even better. He now eats for about 20-25 minutes every three (ish) hours. And at night between feedings, he actually sleeps. We haven't had to deal with nighttime fussiness (yet- knock on wood), and we haven't had to deal with mixing up days and nights (again, knock on wood). We laugh because he has an appetite like his daddy and the fussiness of his momma when he doesn't get fed as soon as the hunger hits... Great combo :)

He is actually super alert (I thought they were supposed to sleep all the time at first!), and loves to look around and take in his new world. He is also VERY strong, which the pediatrician and nurses all commented on. This kid will push you and fight you if he is restrained. :)

We had our first outing over the weekend (first real outing- I'm not considering the doctor last week his first outing!) to my parents. It was so nice to hand him over and nap at their house! We also had our first sponge bath, which he was ok with. He liked the warm water running over his head, but was cold otherwise so pretty much squawked the rest of the time. He did love the lotion afterwards, though! :)

Daddy holding him during bath time

Anthony went back to work this morning and I was pretty anxious about it. Jay was pretty gassy/fussy yesterday afternoon, so I was afraid our  night was going to be like that. And since I would be getting up most with him now that Anthony was going back to work, I was afraid that it was going to be a hard night. Surprise- Jay was fantastic! He got two big 3-3 1/2 hour chunks of sleep which was awesome!

My mom and I took him to the pediatrician this morning for his check up. He did GREAT while we were there. He has gained back weight and is now at his birth weight! Woohoo!

He measured:
21 inches (75th %)
7 lbs on the dot (just like birth!) which puts him in the 25% - poor skinny man!
13 3/4 head circumference (25%)

Basically we have a long and lean boy!

Everything else looked great with him and the doctor was pleased! Yay!

Now it's time for a nap for mommy! I'm still getting used to the no sleep thing. Add the crazy postpartum hormones into the mix and it makes for a fun evening! :)    It's so funny because I was pretty even tempered the entire pregnancy. I really didn't have any mood swings or major breakdowns. But let me just tell you about the postpartum hormones- HOLY MOLY!!!! Hormones and no sleep are just a recipe for disaster! It's actually really funny when you aren't having a cry-fest (like right now I can laugh about it). Anyway, I'm trying to be really good about trying to sleep when the baby sleeps- especially when my mom is here and can hold him for me!

I leave you with one of my favorite pictures (thank you Michelle for taking it!)... This has been a whirlwind of a week- but I wouldn't change ONE thing about it. I absolutely LOOOOVE being a mommy to this little boy- if only I could figure out a way to get him to sleep for eight hours straight... hmmm... :)

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Our Precious Jay

What a whirlwind of a weekend! Friday began the most amazing and incredible experience I could have ever imagined!

To preface- I am going to tell you about my labor/delivery experience. I won't tell you anything disgusting (believe me- I can't stand talking about bodily functions/fluids/products), but if you don't want to know details, then maybe skip this one.

So anyway, Friday I was completely unmotivated to do anything all day long. I felt so tired and so sluggish- a definite change from my behavior all week long. God definitely knew that I needed to lay low and rest all day since I would be going into labor that night!!!

Friday evening Anthony and I went to my parents' house like we do most Friday nights. And, like most Friday nights, Anthony fell asleep at about 8:00 on my parents' couch. I had been feeling pretty crampy all afternoon/evening long, but I had been feeling cramps on and off for a week and a half, so I was pretty used to it.

After dinner I was sitting at the kitchen table with my mom, Kiki, and Michelle. My cramps started getting pretty bad- like PMS cramps. Finally I realized they were kind of coming and going instead of being constant. I immediately told my mom and sisters, and then called my other sister Jennifer. She told me it was probably contractions- that's how hers felt and to keep an eye on them. Then I started texting Courtney- I remember her describing her contractions like this and so I needed another opinion (from the three I already had!). She said that's exactly how hers felt. I started timing them at 8:48, and they were pretty inconsistent- 9 minutes, then 4 minutes, then 8... so then I couldn't decide if it was it or not. By the way, Anthony is still asleep during all of this. So I wake him up and tell him that I am pretty sure I am going into labor and we should probably go home soon and get our things just in case.

Waking Anthony up to tell him I'm in labor...

Walking around the house trying to make the contractions more regular!

So Anthony and I head home to wait and see. We get the last minute things together for our bags and then just wait. Anthony isn't convinced "this is it"- and I get frustrated. I'm not sure it's "it" either, but I also know that I'm having contractions and they aren't super comfortable. I'm also a little nervous because my doctor is NOT on call this weekend, and some random man is... Ugh... So after a while of debating, I call the on-call doctor. He tells me to go on in to the hospital and see. So we pack up and head out!!!

In our L&D Room!

Still Smiling :)

Supportive Family at the hospital at 3:00 am!

Mom and Sisters in the waiting room! They were amazing to come
in the middle of the night and wait! I'm so blessed!!!

So when we check in, I am 3 cm dilated. They told me not to hold my breath that delivery would be soon- maybe noonish tomorrow. They told me they would start me on Pitocin at 5 am and we would go from there. After about thirty minutes, I got a dose of pain killers- which DID NOT HELP AT ALL. I started having HORRIBLE back labor. This was the worst pain I have ever had in my life. I honestly thought my back was being ripped off of my body. It was horrendous. Anthony called the nurse and they called the Anesthesiologist for my epidural. I got the blissful medicine (two tries- ouch!) and I could instantly feel the numbness coming over my body. It was wonderful. They checked me again (this was about an hour and a half after we first checked in) and I had jumped to 6 cm dilated!! So no Pitocin at 5 apparently. :)   I waited in numbness for about thirty minutes and all of a sudden I had two spots that epidural had worn off. One in front and one in my back- both on my right side. Again, worst pains I have ever felt. It was torture! So Anthony called the nurse again and the Anesth. came back to administer more. I could feel everything go completely and totally numb and it truly was bliss again! During this bout of pain, my WONDERFUL LD nurse called Dr. McCloskey (not the doctor on call) and told her my progress. She said she absolutely would be up to deliver my baby! PRAISE JESUS for my wonderful doctor! I know there aren't many that would get to the hospital at 3:30 am on their weekend off to deliver a baby! I LOVE that woman!

The nurse checked me again (now at 3:00 am- about three-ish hours since I checked in), and I was at 10 cm!! That and my water had broken all over the floor!!! Apparently it was go time!!!!!! Yikes! Unfortunately, they had just given me a huge second dose of epidural, so I couldn't feel ANYTHING. Sounds great, right? Except try to push with the bottom half of your body completely numb- not happening.

I started pushing at 3:30 when Dr. McCloskey showed up. I pushed for almost 45 minutes when they cut the epidural off completely (my request). It was just too hard to try to push and feel nothing. Once the feeling in my legs started coming back, pushing became easier and easier. By the end, I could feel the contractions but it was so worth it because I could also feel to push and it made it so much better! Anthony was absolutely incredible throughout the entire delivery. He was encouraging and helped push me along the entire time. I know I could have never pushed for so long without him.

After TWO HOURS of hard pushing labor, our precious Jay Andrew Squillante made his entrance into this world weighing 7 lbs on the dot and 20 inches long. This was the most surreal experience I have ever known. They thrust little tiny baby onto my chest and I was just shocked. I thought I would burst into tears (I shed some), but it was more of a total feeling of awe. After Anthony cut his cord and he started breathing and crying they started cleaning him up in the room. Then they put him back on my chest and it was amazing to see this little miracle again.

First Meeting

Truest Love

That is honestly it. That is the story of my labor and delivery. It was so much easier than I could have ever imagined. I know that God's hand worked a complete miracle that night and morning. To have had such an incredible labor and delivery is not something we could have any part in. I know how blessed we are and am so thankful that He had His hand over us through the entire process. After the picture above, Anthony said a prayer for our new little family thanking God for this little miracle. We know Jay is just on loan to us in this life. We promised God that we are going to do our best to take care of him like he deserves and to raise him to know his incredible Creator. Praise Him!

I never knew that true and pure love was possible like this. I am so deeply in love this sweet child. And my love for Anthony has reached a new level. I thought I loved Anthony before- but creating a miracle like this is true love in the highest form. I am forever grateful to my sweet husband for this gift.

My cup runneth over.

Stay tuned for more pics in the coming days...

Thursday, August 19, 2010


I have had so much fun the past two weeks with my mom and sisters "prepping" for this baby to come! My mom and I have now received TWO massages (mostly foot massages- I heard that induced labor. No such luck!), manicure, pedicure, haircut, waxing, etc... I am totally prepped and ready to go! Michelle has been in town for some of these appointments, and I've done LOTS of lunch dates with my sisters, aunt and grandmother, friends, etc... We are just trying to pass the time until this sweet boy comes.

It has been SO fun living my "momlorette" (that would be like a bachelorette party for becoming a mom) life these past two weeks. I seriously feel like we are celebrating like I'm getting married- only we are celebrating me about to become a mom! Doing all the last minute things and hanging out together "one last time" pre-baby. It definitely has reminded me of all the fun my mom and I had before my wedding. Now I'm getting to do it all over again with her!

All of this pampering DOES come at a price though. There are LOTS of great stories I've had from these sessions, but by FAR my favorite is this one...

My mom and I are getting a pedicure last week at our usual nail place. We love the women there and know them so well. I am sitting in my chair relaxing as my toenails are drying and this LOUD woman walks in. She sees my stomach and starts serenading me! I am a little freaked out at this point and just try to smile but not really make eye contact. She sits in her spot (still singing) and I finish up. I get up and walk towards my mom. As I pass by her she stands up and says, "Boy! You are about ready to pop aren't ya?!" Well, yes I am thankyouverymuch. I nod and smile. Then she starts rubbing her hands ALL OVER MY BELLY and says, "What are you? 8 months along?" I smile nicely, try to back away a little and let her know that I am, as a matter of fact, 9 1/2 months along. She then moves closer to me again (hands off now), and says, "Are you having the baby naturally?" I am now standing almost on top of my mom, this woman is standing almost on top of me and I reply, "No. I'm going to have an epidural." To which she replies, "Chicken!"

I WAS SHOCKED!!!!!!! Are you serious?!?!?! 

First of all, it is MY choice whether or not to have an epidural. Yes I want one. No I do not care if you don't want one. To each their own. I know my limits and I know that I would like an epidural. I do not walk around and try to push my views on you so I would expect the same respect. And I have had MANY people try to tell me why natural is better and blah blah blah. Like I said, I respect your decision and that is GREAT. But to call me a chicken?!!? I've never heard anything like it!

Back to the story- my eyes got HUGE and before I could say anything (trust me it wasn't going to be very nice), my mom grabbed my arm, smiled sweetly, and said, "Well, it's time to get you home momma! You probably need to rest now." And we turned and began walking out (saying goodbye to the sweet nail ladies of course).

We got in the car and started cracking up at the STRANGE woman at the nail shop that day. I have never experienced anything like it...

Other than that, people are generally SO WONDERFUL and sweet to pregnant women! They are so respectful and kind and men especially feel the need to be EXTRA chivalrous! It's been fantastic!

Anyway, I thought I would share my story since I can't fall asleep (again). Goodnight! :)

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Nursery Pics!!

So I have finally taken the time to take pictures of and post our nursery pictures!

I had REALLY specific things in mind when we found out we were having a boy. I didn't want theme-y, I didn't want blue/brown combo, and I knew VERRRRRY specific things I wanted. Sidenote- please do not be offended and think I don't like theme-y or blue/brown- I do! I just had specific things in mind for our own nursery! Anyway....

It actually ended up being a little bit harder to get the nursery decorated and set up the way I wanted because I had such specific things in mind. I couldn't find a lot of the things I wanted, so I had to create what I wanted. Anyway, here are pics- we went for little boy, sporty, blues. We are so pleased with the results and can't wait to have you ALL over to meet our man and check it out!  :)

Oh, and do NOT mind the picture quality- it was on our little camera and the pics don't do it justice- at least in my opinion! haha

The pictures are some of the things I had in mind that I couldn't find....
Black/white basketball, football, and baseball

Ok so remember this empty wall is where his JAY letters are supposed to go...
They are STILL not in...
I can tell you which Etsy store NOT to order from... :)

So that's it! The walls are navy if you can't really tell (no not black) and the bedding/curtains are blues and whites. We are SOOOO happy with it and can't wait to have a baby to go in there!  :)

On another note- I went to sleep last night after 12:30 and have been up since 5 this morning when Anthony left. I have already done two loads of laundry, walked Tex (really long walk!), blogged, gone to the bagel shop, and started the dishes... Why can't I sleep?!!?  :)

Monday, August 16, 2010


So I had my 39 Week Appointment today and we got GREAT news!! I am 2 1/2 cm dilated and 85% effaced- yay for progress! She also said that if his head was any lower he would be out of me and in my arms! My doctor actually said she was very pleased with the progress and that her gut feeling said this little boy would make his debut sometime this week! WOOHOO! But of course she reminded me that she could be wrong, which is when I said..... "So, when do we get to talk about inducing if he doesn't come this week?" And the she replied with the sweetest words I've ever heard, "Well, let's talk about it now!"

So we decided that Monday, August 23rd I will be induced if Baby Jay hasn't made his debut! That is ONE WEEK from today!!!! We are SOOOOO excited!!!! I will be 40 weeks then and since he's measuring a little big and I am feeling pretty pregnant, it is the best solution. She also said we could wait and see if he came on his own next week and then induce the following Monday (8/30), but I politely said no thank you. :)

It is SOOO crazy to think that by this time next week I will have a baby in my arms (Lord willing- that's if the labor doesn't take more than 12 hours!). I was so excited when Dr. McCloskey and I picked the date, and I definitely teared up! Ha! It's so exciting to think that 9 1/2 months of picturing what he will look like and how he will be is almost over! I have thought about this little boy so much and cannot wait to really meet him and hold him and just love on him.

I LOVED calling Anthony after my appointment! It was almost like telling him I was pregnant in the first place! I told him how the appointment went and THEN told him about being induced on Monday and he was SO excited! It was so cute! I can't wait to see him tonight and get excited again with him!!

Of course, if he came on his own this week that would still be my preference. I would LOVE to make that call to my family and friends saying, "It's time!" But I also know that I am ready to meet him, so however he decides to come is good with me!  :)

So, please keep prayers coming our way that everything will go smoothly and this little boy will have a happy, healthy entrance into the world.

We can't wait to meet our little man!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Supportive Friends....

While pregnancy insomnia is not the most fun thing in the world, one thing that makes it SO MUCH better is the support I get from my faithful friends- Tex and Ella.

Every night when I can't sleep, I come into the office and sit at the computer. Ella curls herself around the laptop with her head resting right next to the keyboard, and Tex curls himself up in the part of the desk where my feet (and the chair) go.

As I type, I have a purring kitty touching my hands, and a deep-breathing dog laying on my feet. While I NEVER call them to come with me (they are usually asleep like Anthony within 5 minutes of going to bed), they ALWAYS wake up and come find me.

I LOOOVE my pets! I can't wait to see if they will still be this attentive to my nightly awake sessions once a crying baby is involved... We shall see... :)

On a non-pregnancy note (since that's just about all I post/think about these days!) Michelle is coming into town Monday! I CANNOT wait to see her! I know it's only been a little over a month, but it feels like FOREVER!

On another pregnancy note (see, it really is all I post/think about), my nursery is ready- and I actually FINALLY took pics! I am still waiting on the custom made letters I ordered for Jay. It was supposed to take 7 weeks and it's now been TEN. Apparently they are ready and just WAITING to be shipped- c'mon LADY, send them to me!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, point is, I will post those in the next few days! Yay!!!! And you will just have to imagine where the letters go- argh.

I also went to lunch last week with my FABULOUS second grade team from last year. They all went back to school Thursday and I'm not gonna lie- I TOTALLY missed seeing everyone and catching up on the going-ons of school life. But, I am also NOT sad about not getting my room ready and all the sucky meetings you have to go to!

Alright, I think this is enough of a pointless post... Unfortunately, I only wasted seven minutes of insomnia time on this... hmmmm... trying to think of what else to write...


Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Cool Feelings...

If you grew up in Houston in the 90's and listened to 104, you might remember the morning show and Psycho Robbie. He was a part of it when Sam Malone and Maria Todd were running the show. Psycho Robbie did a segment called "Cool Feelings."

Here are a few of his "Cool Feelings" that I googled...
-When you wake up before your alarm clock goes off and can't go back to sleep . . . that's a cool feeling.

-When you buy some chips from a vending machine and they don't release completely . . . that's a cool feeling.
-When the smoke from the barbecue pit blows in your face no matter which side of the grill you stand on . . . that's a cool feeling.
-When you're on a diet and gain weight . . . that's a cool feeling.

I used to LOVE listening to those (even though at the time I didn't get most of them).

Well, today I had two Cool Feelings that I thought I would share....
-When you are 9 1/2 months pregnant and you go to the end of the driveway to bring the smelly trashcans up in the 100 degree heat and fall off the curb and twist your ankle and hurt your wrist in front of the new neighbors... that's a cool feeling.
-When you have been working so hard to get your overweight dog to lose weight by lots of exercise and substituting green beans for dog food only to take him to the vet (while you are 9 1/2 months pregnant) and find out he has gained weight... that's a cool feeling.

So after I fell off the curb (which just happened fifteen minutes ago), I hoisted myself up- not an easy task remember- and brushed myself off. The new male neighbor across the street rushed over and a RANDOM woman driving by stopped and got out of her car to see if I was ok. Yes, this happened. I tried to laugh it off and reassure everyone that I was in fact fine and made some stupid joke about my big belly and having no balance... Then I limped and dragged those darn trashcans to the side of our house and came in and let the 9 month prego hormones take over. And I sat and cried.   :)    I am fine now and laughing about it (kind of, I just teared up again as I wrote the story), and my ankle and wrist don't hurt at all. But COME ON! Was it really necessary universe to make me FALL in those conditions and embarrass myself?!?!

And yes, I have been working so hard on getting Tex to lose weight. We walk every day (not as much as we did before the hot summer), and I have started substituting green beans for his food. And I was so excited to take him in today and weigh him. Then, I got the news that he gained three pounds. COME ON! Argh....

Needless to say I thought it would be therapeutic to write down my Cool Feelings for you all... Maybe I will make this a more regular post- who doesn't love reading about other people's irritations?!

PS- I promise I am happy and ok writing this. See?!  :)  :)  :)

UPDATE:  It is OK to laugh out loud at this post.... That is what it is hear for... It is supposed to be humorous- I PROMISE!!! :)

Monday, August 9, 2010

C'mon Doc....

I had my 38 week appointment today (well, technically it was my 37 week 6 day appointment- you get it though). And I've made a little progress- 1 1/2 cm dilated and 70% effaced! Of course I would have been perfectly happy hearing the words, "Oh my! You should just go straight down to labor and delivery and have this baby today!" Alas, those words were not said...

But on my chart it says I'm just now 37 weeks (just from what the nurses had written down- they didn't change my due date, they were just off on their counting). So when Dr. McCloskey told me I was making good progress for being 37 weeks, I reminded her that I am actually 38 weeks tomorrow. She double checked everything and made the corrections on the chart (and wasn't happy with her nurses!).

This was actually GREAT because this made her realize that since I'm further along and the baby is getting pretty big, having him early would be better. So she did whatever she could to help it along but also said that we would talk again at the next appointment and hopefully get him to come early so he won't be too huge... This is all working in my favor of getting her to induce me earlier than 41 weeks!  :) 

On another note, if anyone has any "home remedies" for inducing labor, I would LOVE to hear them! Not that I really expect old wive's tales to work, but it can't hurt trying, right?? Just to preface, I do NOT want to drink castor oil- SICK...

Happy Monday!!  :)

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Who Gets the Money?

So funny story from church this morning...

My 4 1/2 year old nephew Owen was sitting between my mom and me during church today. As the collection plate was passed down our pew, my mom told Owen to grab his dollar and put it in the plate to give to God. Owen said, "No, Grandeb. You put it in there." And my mom replied explaining that it was his job to give his money to God. To which Owen said, "But God doesn't get the money. That guy up there (pointing to the man saying the prayer) gets it!"

Our whole pew was dying laughing!

I have my 38 week appointment tomorrow! Fingers crossed that we have made some progress! I am hoping for a delivery on tomorrow's date- 8/9/10- how cool would that be?!?!?!

Monday, August 2, 2010

9. Months. Pregnant.

So I remember last summer when my sweet friend Christina had a post VERY similar to this one. It was about her being 9 months pregnant and all of the fun that went with it. I remember thinking how she must not feel very great and it must be so hot for her. Now I have a WHOLE NEW APPRECIATION for how she really felt!

I am feeling HUGE! I feel like I have run out of room for this little boy. I am hot. My back hurts. My feet are killing me (though I still don't have cankles- WOOHOO!). My tummy is stretched to the max (though I have no stretch marks!). I LOOOOOVED being pregnant for 8 months. But these last few weeks have been pretty tough! I know I am not going through anything that any other mom hasn't gone through. I am still so BLESSED that I am healthy, up and moving, and everything is going great. I realize that I am complaining and a lot of you out there are thinking, "Shut up lady. You don't have a clue how bad it could be." I get that.

So that's why I am done complaining (to you guys- I will probably still complain a little to my mom and Anthony).

But honestly, I can't believe it's almost time! I mean, it could be ANY day!

I had my 37 week doctor's appointment today. I am 50-60% effaced and 1/2 cm dilated! Woohoo! hahahah I know that is NOTHING, but even if it's a LITTLE progress it still makes me feel good!  :)  Otherwise the baby and I are good and healthy. My doctor is on-call this weekend in case I should go into labor, but she sweetly told me not to count it- it will be another couple weeks...

On another note, I interviewed a FABULOUS pediatrician today! I LOOOOVE her and the group and am excited to use them!

On a final note- here is a 9 month prego pic of me! Hopefully I won't make it to a 10 month pic, but you never know...   :)